Fear

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Most people think of fear as only a negative thing. You could be afraid of spiders, small spaces or even dying. The term is never thought of in a positive way. Well I believe fear can be both positive and negative, that all depends on how you view things. For example I am very fearful of speaking in public, I always have been. It makes me extremely nervous, uncomfortable and very scared. But when I think on the positive side of fear it leads me to thinking about motivation. When I have fear it drives me to conquer that fear. With every moment I become more fearful of something, I start to want to become fearful of that same thing. The fear motivates me to over come any obstacle in my way. I was afraid of the dark for quite awhile, till I was almost 14. Being in a room that I couldn't see anything in really just completely scared me. I got to the point where I could really sleep without some sort of light in my room. But one day I thought to myself I absolutely HATE being afraid or fearful of things in my life. So now when ever I start to become scared of something I just think to myself how can I overcome this obstacle and stop being afraid. If you had no fear in your life what would even be the point? Fear drives so many great people to overcome anything they set there mind to. Someone can be deathly fearful of heights, but they still get in airplanes and skydive down to the ground. Without fear the would would be quite a boring place. People would never take risks, or they might always take risks which would eventually become the norm for society. Fear drives people into things that they wouldn't do normally, unless they weren't afraid in the first place.

OBSTACLES
There have been multiple obstacles in my life and my families. But that's what brings your family closer. You fave the obstacles together and grow together from it. My family have never had it easy by any means, but that doesn't mean you need to look at the dark side of things. We help each other past that dark side to look at the positive outcomes. My mother passed away almost 3 years ago in about a month form now. Obviously it was hard getting through her passing. Everyone was depressed, we lost out home and cars and had to move back in with my grandparents. A new high school, new friends to make, new house to live in. It was all a very sudden change and a big obstacle to over come. With my family along the way to help each other we got through it though. The positive thing to take out of this situation would be now my sister, daad and I are closer than ever. Not a day goes by that we don't talk and communicate with each other.

Every family has their own types of obstacles in their homes. It could be something major like loosing a family member, or it could be small like choosing who gets what car when they turn 16. Whatever the case it's always important for me to remember that fact. Your never alone in your problems. Chances are there is someone out there, probably close to you, thats going through some of the same types of problems and obstacles. I believe it's very hard to go through any type of obstacle alone, and you don't ever have to.

HIGH SCHOOL
High school for me was not that long ago. I graduated last year and now i'm only in my second semester of college. Alopt has chnaged in those 4 years of school. I lost and gained so many friends. I have breakups and new beginging in relationships. My family was torn apart then reunited agian. I will always cherish my high school years. There is so much i learned about my life and who I wanted to become in high school. My teachers also helped me through out the processes of becoming a freshman into a senior.
When I first entered high school as a freshman i was 5'1 and was completely innocent to the world. I didn't realize that I actually had to start doing my work in class or else I would fail. High school wasn't some thing I could just blow off like in grade and middle school. My transition form freshman to senior was huge. I grew about 7 inches, changed my life and clothes style about 10 times and had a whole new out look on life. I felt like I was ontop of the worl as a senior and that I had my life figured out. Now that im a freshman again only in college I feel as if i've slumped down again into immaturity and unknowings. I think to myself a lot that when ever im a senior in college I wonder if I will feel the same as I did in high school. Will I feel lost or at the top of my game, ready for the world? It's definitely a waiting game to see how my life will play out. I hope that I don't make the same mistakes again and I hope I have enough experience already in my life to deal with what ever is thrown at me next. It is always a comforting though though that I know I will always have my best friend next to me to help me through anything that's thrown at me. Even though my sister isn't in college with me i know we have similar view points on the topic and that we both want whats best for each other. I hope the the rest of my college career is like my high school and isn't l/like my high school. I hope it is because i enjoyed it, but I hope it's not because I hated the drama.